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Name: Mandy (Amanda)
Birthday: 3/20/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: Laughing, making other ppl laugh, being sarcastic, OR funny, which ever you want to catergorize it. I love to talk, talking is my specialty. Sleeping is also something I love to do. And pooping. Actually, I don't get my daily bowel in. That sucks too cz isn't it healthy for you? I don't know. Whatever. I think I'm getting better at it, to tell you the truth! Smiling, being myself and being honest. I absolutely LOVE shopping, and I love bagels.
Expertise: Being awesome, duhhh.
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AIM:  ManderineOrangeS
Member Since:
7/30/2005
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| Today I realized that 2006 has been really good to me. I mean, there are downfalls, but when aren't there? The only bad things that has happened are my parents divorce and the death of my dog. Other than that, I'm freakin' happy as can be. I've overcome a lot from the past, and I'm excited to see where the future takes me. Each day goes by and I keep gettin' stronger and stronger. I've done some things that I thought I would never get the guts to do. But I'm really proud of myself. I think in anyone's case, whatever doesn't kill you, makes you stronger. Don't you agree? I mean at first it hurts, it kills, it eats you up inside, but over time, you get over it and you realize you're going to be okay. If not, then you would have been dead a long time ago, eh? Obviously I wish some things were different, but then again, things happen for a reason, so you might have not gotten something else that was actually really good, ya know?
Anyways, I'm on spring break right now. I celebrated my birthday on Monday with my friends. They came over and we drank and had a good time. Other than that, I haven't done much. Just working out a lot.. tryin' to lose weight for the summer, cleaning, and sleeping. That's all there is to do around here! We're going to Madtown tomorrow! I can't freakin' wait. I miss those kids. It's Tory, Jamie, Cathy and I that are drivin up. It should be a good time. Then Sunday we've gotta leave early so I can visit my bro before I head back to Chitown. Ya I fucking went to the prison last night and they fucking wouldn't let me in cz I had metal fucking buttons on my jeans. How fucking ridiculous! I drove over an hour to go see him and ugh. Waste of gas and time.
I can't wait to get back to Chitown. I'm gonna smother Adrian with my kisses!!!! Oh, how I've missed him! I'm so happy. I needed him. He came at the right time, that's for damn sure.....
Part of me is excited to move out of Wales. Too many memories in this house, down these streets, at the stores, etc. I need a change. It should be good for us. I mean, my dad might not realize it right now, but in the future hopefully. My mom plans to move to downtown Chicago, in a condo, which would be fucking awesome. And my pops is stayin back for my brother, once he gets out, so that's good, right? Cz my mom would have never let him come live with her. I'm gonna live with her if she's down there by my junior year, so we'll save some money for room and board and she lets me do whatever I want really, so that'll be cool.
Oh ya! So for my birthday, my mom got me a Michael Kors clutch and Giorgio Armani perfume.. MMM!!! My dad got me a prayer box necklace and $75 to Kohls! I always take advantage of Kohls and Walmart when I come home cz there aren't any downtown! Sara and I went to Walmart the other night and we bought these awesome sweatpants and these HUGE drinking goblets!!! I loved my sweatpants so much I went back and bought two more, in different colors. I've been spending too much money while being home. I need to get back to Chi and get my fucking paycheck muthafucka!!! :)
Well, I'm going to work out with Tor now. Enjoy your day bitches.
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| So, I'm only doing this because I'm alone right now, and it's been awhile. It's Thursday night. Eleni's out. Sara's out. And Kristyna went back to Michigan for spring break. So it's just little old me tonight in 605 A and B. I need a night to relax though. Spring break has officially started, and I'm so fucking happy. How bout we do a little updating, shall we??
School:
I hate Journalism. Thank God I'm realizing that now, eh? I would love to be on TV someday, but you have to go through all the writing/print shit before you get to broadcast, AND my grammar and writing skills suck, and I hate writing, so why do something I don't enjoy? So yeah, I'm looking into Marketing Communications/PR. I just need to find out what I love to do, ya know? I just wish I was smart or talented at something. As grades go... I'm doing very well in Math and Sign Language --which by the way, is like the funnest class ever!!!! Those midterms were easy neway. I've got my hard ones after break. Shitty, I know.
Family:
My parents started the paperwork, lawyer shit, and counseling this week. My mom agreed to going to one counseling session, but my dad needs it more. I called him the other day and at the end of our convo, he started crying cz he said it's really lonely there w/o me, my mom, Bogart, and Mitch... I almost died. :( It makes me sad cz I wanna be there for him, but I'm in Chi. Pooey. My grandpa used to stay at Alexian Village, it's a nursing home, up off 76th... and I guess they don't take care of him... so long story short, he might have to get part of his foot amputated, cz he has gang-green. :( So that's shitty. My mom filed a complaint against the nursing home, so the state is doing an investigation. I'm visiting my brother when I go home for break. That should be a good time.
Friends:
I love 'em. Can't wait to spend time with you guys over break, cz I really miss you guys. I would do more traveling if I didn't have my freakin' job. Monday I'm planning on having some ppl over to celebrate my 19th birfday. You're welcome to come if you're home from break! :) Tuesday I might go see Mitch. Wednesday who freakin' knows. Thursday Tor and I are going out to eat at that Mexican restaurant in Waukesha again. Then Friday we're going to freakin' Madison for the weekend to visit my loves!!! I can't wait. I haven't really been to a huge college campus yet, so it should be an amazingly fun time. I'm going to visit Elise, Lynn, Harder, Radue, Rom, Mary, and Toy.. hopefully! So yeah! :) Then I'm back to Chitown on Sunday....
Job:
I get made fun of so much for being "blonde" at that place. And I'm the baby, so they like to take advantage of that. It's fun though. Good money.
LOVE:
Ohh, I'm so happy right now. I've got Adrian. He's my bronco. We've been dating for about a month now, and I couldn't be happier. Well, I probably could, but with him only. I'm finally ready to be with someone. He treats me good, and I just love spending time with him. :) :) I could brag some more, I really could, but I don't want people to get jealous or anything. Haha, jk! This is an amazing feeling though, not gonna lie!!!
Summer plans:
Arizona for a week with Tor and muh mum. Bahamas with muh mum. Working lots and lots and lots. Maybe two jobs, if possible. We'll see.
Anything else? Umm, I think not. Just that I haven't been this happy in a long ass muthafuckin' time, and that's thanks to my darling!!!!!!!!
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| Valentine's Day is overrated. Even when I was with someone, I always thought it was kind of a stupid holiday. Just another day for Hallmark to make more money. Oh well. I guess I shouldn't be ungrateful, especially if someone takes me out. Ha! :)
I suggest every female go see Annapolis, with James Franco and Tyrese. It will SERIOUSLY make you wet. Not pee, but juice. It definitely makes you want to work out and get in shape too, which I need, so that's good.
I get paid on Thursday!! YES MOTHER FUCKER! I'm going tanning to celebrate. Gotta get tan for AZ!!:)
My hair is getting crispy. I really need a haircut. Should I dye it darker? I'm wondering if I should or not. Hmm.. maybe after I bake my skin away I will!
I love bagels.
Wow, sorry guys. This entry is lame. Karri, I miss you and I'm sorry I haven't been updating. I might be home March 21-23 so I'll give you a call and maybe we can do dinner?!?? | | |
| I've come to the conclusion, over many nights of deep thought and no-sleep, that ME, personally, can not date or be involved with someone that I am not friends with prior to the decision of hooking up or being in a relationship with. Because, the reasons are quite simple. (Even though it took me FOREVER to figure it out.) I've got plenty of guy friends back in WI, and I am completely and totally myself and more when I'm around them. I'm like one of the guys. And to me, that isn't such a bad thing. I can watch sports, talk about sex (even if it is "gross" or "disrespectful" to the other females in the room), crack jokes and take advantage of my sarcasm to the max, and laugh like I've never laughed before. That is what I need in a relationship. Or else I'm too busy worrying about if my hair looks okay, or if I'm a good kisser, or if his friends are going to like me. All that is too much stress for me and in the end, I'm never totally "myself" around those guys of guys, that I just start "liking" right off the bat, or don't get to know them fully before going to the next step. It's unfortunate that I haven't met guys down here in CHI that can compare to my friends back home, but of course, no one will ever replace them, but I'm just saying. Oh, and I'm not saying I want to date all of you lucky ML lads, but I'm just saying... the way I am with them, is the way I HAVE to be with the guys I'm interested in, and want more to the friendship. Of course, there are cases where the guy/girl friendship I have with some guys is just STRICTLY FRIENDS. Wes, this concerns you. You and I both know, yet our moms are still convinced we're gonna get married. However, no offense, but you're like my brother. And you should take that as a compliment anyways! It makes perfect sense as to why I was so attached as I was, or maybe still am, is because as a whole, we were friends from the beginning. And a part of me wants to rekindle it, start it all over again, but from what has happened to me, my heart, my body, the decisions I've made with other things, I can't keep doing that to myself. It's draining. I can't go back to what I "thought" we were. As much as I want to, I don't want to keep getting hurt as bad as I was. He may never realize or know, but that's something I'm going to have to deal with. So, in conclusion to my big schbeal or whatever you call it, NO relationships will last unless you were friends in the beginning. It's just THAT simple. | | |
| I made it through my first week of second semester. And ya know what, I'm kind of excited to take all these classes. I actually WANT to do my homework, which sounds really gay and nerdy, and UNLIKE ME, but I actually want to learn something this semester, unlike last one. I had sooo much homework this weekend, it's crazy. I have never had so much shit to do.
I GOT A JOB!!!! I'm so happy. I work at Lakeshore Athletic Club at the front desk. I get to greet big, buff, attractive, sweaty men all day long, for $8 an hour! I did make more money at Perkins, but this job is so chill and relaxed compared to all the stress and chaos at the restaurant. My boss is so hot. He's 26, and oh yes, he's black. Gotta love it.
I got drunk with my mom on Friday. We went to her best friend's house, we as in Kristyna and I, and it was so much fun! My mom personally bought us and small bottle of Captain, and yes I drank HALF of it and I was okay! My tolerance is getting better, that's only if I have enough food in my system, or else I would have been on the bathroom floor with my mom, yes she passed out. We went in the hottub and after we got out, it totally hit her. The next day we went to Gurnee cz Kristyna's from Michigan so she's never been there, and yes I bought some more shit. I really need to stop. But hey, I got a job now so I can spend my money again! The first thing I'm purchasing is a tanning package. I am sooo white.
Congrats Reese Witherspoon for winning best actress!! I love you.
I wanna see Brokeback Mountain still. Heath Ledger, oh geez, do me please. I love you too. | | |
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